As Mother's Day approaches this year I've felt a sadness drape over me. Part of me just wants to skip Sunday. There are no cards that say, "Have a sad Mother's Day." But many do.
For some reason, after all these years, I need Mama. I wish I could feel her soft hand stroke mine, chat with her, or feel her hug as she wipes away a tear. I just want to be with her. Does a daughter ever grow old enough not to need her Mama sometimes?
The above picture is of my Grandmother Strickland (Mama's mama) holding newborn me. Or it may be my younger brother, Ricky because it looks like Florida, but he'll never admit to wearing a dress! All newborns look somewhat alike and more like Winston Churchill than family for awhile. The photo below is of Mom and Dad in Nashville, TN, during my college years. From cradle to college, she was right there.
Now she's not. She's in heaven.
While the longings of my heart pulled me one way, God guided my heartstrings another. Last week He blessed me through my own two daughters. I held Katy in my arms and we hugged, long and hard. I stroked her four sons' cherub fingers. Laughter ricocheted from eight lively, hilarious grandchildren at play. I rubbed Kimberly's aching back and she rested her head on my shoulder. We all three had wonderful mother-daughter chats, laughing at old, family videos at Katy's house. Kimberly even wiped away my tears one morning.
So while I miss Mama, God physically reminded me that He met my needs for hugs, chats, touch, laughter and care...through my daughters, two of the most wonderful mothers ever created. They reflect Mama in their laughter, their antics, their love, their cooking! They sure didn't get the cooking gene from ME! Even my precious daughter-in-law, Mary, another excellent mother, got the cooking gene. I got the eating gene from Grandmother! And diabetes!
So I've decided to intentionally change my focus from Sad Mother's Day to Happy Daughters' Day or Happy Mother's Memories Day. Sunday I'll post an extra blog sharing how Mama still influences us from heaven today.
Be blessed this Mother's Day. We all are, no matter the circumstances. If you don't have a godly birth mother this Mother's Day, He has still given you godly women who have influenced you. Choose cheer and gratitude!
Blessed to be a blessing,